What's a thief to do after theft?
They left.
Was any party badly cut?
Me, but...
What was insured of what they stole?
This hole.
In time, I'm told, I'll have a mole
to mark the damage left behind
apart from parts that were not minded:
they left me but this hole.
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Posts Tagged ‘loss
20
Nov
10
But This Hole
18
Nov
10
Tell Me Why We Can’t Go Back
Tell me why we can't go back
to how we were before this mess
you're leaving me. Cold and black
the words recited as you pack:
verdict, sentence, more or less,
but tell me why we can't go back.
Did what I give so badly lack
what you were wanting? Must be yes,
you're leaving me. Cold and black
our bed, like ash in burlap sack.
So lasting felt our last caress,
so tell me why we can't go back.
You're cutting me so little slack
attempting to my faults redress.
You're leaving me. Cold. Black.
Tell me why. I won't attack.
Tell. My heart will acquiesce.
You're leaving me so cold and black.
Tell me why we can't go back.
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18
Nov
10
Tell Me Why Once More
Tell me why they are still so hard on to me.
Haven't I gone far enough past getting free?
Past the burning break, past the aching scar
that're burning, aching still. Tell me why they are.
Tell me why you go after it when I no longer can
force myself to throw my last chance like we began.
Like we became when love and laughter sang as though
laughing loving stayed. Tell me why you go.
Tell me why I lose sight of this day's far end
on through its empty night to which it must descend.
As it must send me flesh and word as I may choose
word and flesh together. Tell me why I lose.
Tell me why once more wouldn't work for me, for you.
They're not at my door. Your song's not through.
I'm still close enough to hold, to kiss, to dream dreams for.
Dreams need not end so. Tell me why once more.
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12
Nov
10
Oh Just Get Over It
See? Doesn't take so much to fill
you. Will
you join us again, since you now
know? How
small a matter to be hostile
to! Smile
for us. Make the moment worthwhile.
There there. There's time to try again.
See? You'll get to be mama when
you still know how to smile.
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12
Nov
10
No One Wants This To End
How'd we come so quickly undone?
No one
past lover you'd best reminisce
wants this
as badly as I. We pretend
to end
what we most wish we'd dare extend.
We started us out conscience-free,
yeah, but just between you and me,
no one wants this to end.
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Somewhere north of that bar you wish to raise
is where I'm aiming, out to hit your praise
or anything resembling it. No lie,
I still act like you've set the standard high
enough. I guess we all go through that phase.
Like you know all the slick tricks to amaze
your audience?—those cheap teasing displays,
your "Is it here? Is this it?" Uh...no. Try
somewhere north of that.
I've lain in limbo long enough. Malaise
will kill my spirit if my body stays
here waiting as if hoping you're nearby.
I'm thinking I might move, you'll catch on why:
look for Lake Erie, then go drive a ways
somewhere north of that.
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03
Nov
10
[stilled september skies]
stilled september skies —
calm collides with wintry winds
above ground zero
[posted for Sara as of date written;
originally posted at Poetic Asides]
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03
Nov
10
Moving Right Along
Whether or not my bed sees you again, every morning it's just as though.
I only know
for every dream of mine you curse, there's another you as easily enchant.
Know you can't
come back where you left me. Wherever you call home these days, my dear,
can't be here.
I'm so damn vulnerable. If I don't leave, you'd know where to find me. I fear
where you'd be welcomed way too easily, there I leave myself too exposed.
I'll still write, but where I'm writing from will have to you remain undisclosed.
I only know you can't be here.
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03
Nov
10
Not Until Now
Not one cross wasn't nailed down, not one dot spared.
Still I fell way far short against whom I got compared.
You grew lifesize in the crosshairs of my rifle's scope
otherwise I'd not've had the aim of my shot impaired.
I wanted the voices to flow freely as though thin air,
so stitching declined and of each blood clot despaired.
They lined us all up head to toe in nice orderly files,
each girl ironed straight and with her own slot paired.
I doubt I can repossess the jewel they dug out of me
but at least I'll get them to have that spot repaired.
"Sara," you'd once said, "she looks a whole lot like me."
That I didn't until now, for that one I wasn't prepared.
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01
Nov
10
The First, In Lieu Of
You said this wasn’t how it’s meant to end—
you even wrote it down in your own hand
as though that made more meaningful its stand
against the close we’d wanted to pretend
already had against our bid been penned.
Did not you always have our next month planned
out in advance, each word at your command
prepared to voice what you might chance intend?
You knew I’d swallow it. I never learn
to wait to see what’s coming past the break.
I thought tomorrow wasn’t my concern
as long as there was time enough to burn
enough to let what’s burnt feel free to ache
past loving love. Still, now where do I turn?
[posted for Sara as of date written]
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